S A L L Y; K O N N Y

Mmm... Today is quite fun at school. I don't know what in the world had happen to me. First, I had decide to talk to Bii. Hah! Guess what! Bii actually asked me who is the guy! Well, I tell her to figure out herself. Peace! Okay! Change topic! Before PJ time, I play like hell with Bii. Really fun! Then with Samantha. Of course, we play like crazy people as usual. Talk a lot. Play a lot. Hit each other a lot. When it's PJ time, teacher made decision to let us play "Bola Tampar". Not really happy, because most of the girls afraid of the almighty ball. Only me who are very active, because I very good girl! I listen to teacher and chase after the ball. After the game, I , Samantha and Vanessa went to the toilet. Something funny had happen. We actually used Sam's pencil case to pretend like hand phone. Weird but fun! *I know for some of the readers, they might think it's really crazy. Then we went back to class. Feel bored then go to Bii's place. Having chit-ch...

Gosh! Has my prince charming arrived?! Why am I so in to him ?! He has a pointed nose, a pair of big sparkling eyes, and lastly thick pinkish lips! Actually... I believe YOU already started to arrived since last year. When we joined IT together. I knew YOU was a quiet guy. Who does not talk much. Last year, when we are having hard times. Everybody seems to be talking bad bout YOU ! Actually I don't see it coming. Innocent YOU ! Then the DAY ! It's like history repeats again. It's the day which we had much time together. Of course, not talking but watching each others out. I hate it. Cause I really want to talk to YOU ! Next year, there won't be histories to be repeat again. Because, YOU are going to leave. No matter how sad am I, I just have to accept the truth. After the DAY . I just can't see YOU or have any clue of where YOU are! Is it already become my destiny? I don't want it to be! I want to stop watching YOUR pictures that always playing in my mind...

Three Wishes! Did he promise me that everything will be okay? Can I know whether you're not lying? Is it everyone thought that I'm doing okay? Can anyone come and understand my feeling? Can I know the truth? I did not mean to do that, But in that condition, how am i suppose to keep quiet. I have walked to a dead end right now. I wish somebody can help me. And does not talk bout it again. Every time I asked for a help. I feel ashamed. Who am I to receive help from others? Feel like dying.Life doesn't mean anything anymore. Every time I think bout money. My tears kept flowing. I really really don't know what to do. I want to stop from crying. I want to be happy. Why other people just kept sad for love, relationship and others but not money. And I! Money! If I was a rich girl. -I would not suffer from insufficient of money. -I would travel to all around the world. -I would study at private school. -I would buy all the things I like. -I would asked my friend to come to my h...

Hmphh.. Early in the morning then get bad news already, It's all bout the boss, Why can't we continue the meeting?! Let the vice have some thought bout the next comittee can he? Well, feel a little bit lucky cause he ask me to go back class. And two thing i suspect. Is it I will get kick out from the thing? Or did i failed my exam so they ask me back to class? After I went back class, Only I knew that the one which did not get asked back to class being scolded by the boss. WHAT! After Serena went back class, I heard that the two bold guys raised up their hand when the boss asked " Who think yourself is qualified to become the committee ?" F-er again. Even others is more qualified than you two! Really polish-ing shoe. He've Change! Next thing, Feel like no mood to chit-chat with her. Cause she like very very talkative, Maybe one day I can't stand her then I would like " Can You Just Shut Up For One Day?!" Well, I can't break this best friend relat...

I woke up. I tried to be spiritual. Failed. Get out from the door. Saw my brother and his friend staying out all night just to play computer game. WEIRD. Then as usual. Walk out, press down, get in, press G, get out, press button, get out. Well,it mean the process of walking out of a apartment. Reach school. All I excited is all about the book festival. Walk up to the class. Spend most the time watching the clock on the wall. Tick-Tick-Tick... It is it! It's the time! Walk down. Saw many members already gather around. But no use we went down early. It's because the stupid bus driver, we waited for one hour and thirty minutes. The funny thing is when we're eating in the bus. When the bus is turning here and there, our chicken would follow sliding. ARRIVE! We get in there. Feel like a book festival heaven. Any book that you wanted is there. 1st target is when I saw RM1.00 each book. But It's 2007 edition. Oxford Fajar. Bought 5. Mmm... Well, don't really mind. 2nd tar...

I'm worry. Worry bout everything that comes to my life. My heart seems like pumping more blood then usual. It doesn't suits me at all. I can hardly breathe. If I'm too confident, It might repeat what had happen last time. It's all in God's hand. Too many things than I worry about. This, That, Those... Why should all this happen to me? Can somebody tell me? These days, I felt that I became more alone. And quite. Is it that I always worry bout things that are unnecessary? Am I stupid? There's so many activities going on this month. I'm too tired for those things. But I must keep busy for not thinking too much of things.

Glad that he's gone back. So he won't suffer. Listening to those cursing. Happy for him. Gee~ What a day. I'm not tired but I'm tired of loneliness. It's like only me in the world. Well, a decision made. Download drama and watched. F4 = Flower 4 It's based on a girl who drove into love circle. Which involve two guys. Erm... Can't predict much. Cause I just watch till episode 3. Aww... I'm not doing my home works. I felt lazy. I don't even want leave the computer. Not even a second. When I remembered bout something I must do but i haven't do yet, my heart pumps even faster. Cause I'm the person whom afraid of the undone. It will make me feel uncomfortable. But I always solve it with additional time. Like "I haven't sleep yet, I still have time." As I look at the clock, I often shock. Ha! Prof that I'm really lazy. Not suitable for KRK class do I? Even I don't know. Actually It's late night, and I don't want to sl...

You won't know how hurt am I. Cause you're not me. I don't know how, how you say out those words and pretend. Pretend that you never say those word out form your mouth before. You say that you are sad. I know. But can you see that I'm sad too? You're older than me. And you suffer more than me, you know it more than me. But why can't you just understand my feeling? I'm just a kid. I might jump out from the building one day. You won't know. Because you won't care. You don't even take me as me. I'm really hurt. I want a more happy life. Why can't you give me? I know you cried too. Pretend? If can, i want to beg you. Beg you so you won't misunderstand him again. Please. I don't want to cry again. Looking other people happiness. I know lots more people suffer more than us. They don't even deserve it. Not even me. Knowing the past, knowing what you have done. Make me cry. Really. Why you lie to me? You have make us believe you. Beli...

If I can comment bout everything, I would. Well, It seems I have lost my power . I'm not "the" me anymore. My reputation seems like a downhill chart. Bang! Just like that. From on top of the world, drop! To under the world. In just a while. A mean world I say. If I can rule everything, I would. Why those guys doesn't need to take part? If logically , I'm one of them. I could sit there and look. Like one of them. Why can't I?! When my eyes were on their faces. I was like "What?!". Well, I can't do anything. I call it Unfair. I'm Out.