Is It A Good Thing?!

I don't know what to think now.
My mind is all blank.
What can I do?
Am I suppose to sit there and see what's going on?
What a fucking world I say.

Why my life have to be like this?
I suffered through enough tears.
Tons of things are playing in my mind.
I wanted a shoulder to lie on.
I wished it was him.

I want to trust.
I want to trust a person and tell the person what I have suffered.
My exam is coming, now she break all my spirit on everything.
Am I suppose to carry on?

When you came back from Genting.
I really do not know what to feel.
Am I suppose to feel happy? Or sad?
I do not know what had happen to you.
But you seems kind of change a lot.

Mother's Day coming,
My original plan is actually go out by myself and buy you some present.
Now you had make me feel that I already do not know you.
It feels like you are not my mom.

I wanted a real mom.
A mom which take over all of my sadness.
Carry things smoothly.
Do anything that will makes us happy.
Why can't I have one?!

I try to love you.
But you seems to neglect me.
I wanted to love you.
But I'm scared you are going to hurt me.

You don't even know how sad I am.
I might look like bad when facing you.
Actually I did not mean to hurt you.

By the way,
I will still get a present for you.
Because I still love you.

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Are you doing okay there?
Because I miss you a lot.
Can you lend your shoulder to me?
Exam's coming, fight for it!

LOVE YOU!