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Listen

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Can anyone just listen to everything that comes towards our eardrum? The sound that hit our eardrum continuously. With a tempo. It's so miracle. Why can't human accept the voice that comes as a advice? It is just the matter of accepting and change. It is hard for other to produce repeated voice. Continuously. Can You Hear ? The sound of... Clock - Ticking. Shows time, Passes by and can't be return. It is so precious that it can bring memories. Once it is passed. It's over. Who invented time? If the person is dead, I wish I could dig him/her from the grave and revive him/her. To reinvent the time to be more than 24 hours. Everybody wants extra time. Our daily activities is so limited. And also movement too. Time ticking. Tic-Toc. [Continuously] The sound of... Small Kid - Crying. Show emotions. It is so soft. That it touches my heart. Who did it? And why did you made the kid cry? They are so innocent. Sometimes, Nobody understand them. Understand what they felt. Maybe le

사람들이 이해가 안돼

나한테 무슨 일이? 지금 내가 미친 것 같아요. 난 정말 울고 싶었어요. 하지만 ... 전 작은 문제에 대한 울지 않을 수있습니다. 죄송합니다, Jenn. 나에게 거는 기대가 너무 무리하지 마세요. 내 친구는 어디입니까? 어디에 어깨는? Teck Lee! Kai Di! 나는 당신이 필요합니다! 난 이제 알아... 왜 그들을 미워. Serena 심지어는 내가 미친 줄 알았. 누가 날 변경? 자유의 땅 누가 날 데려다 줄 수 있어요? 지원! 어디있는 거니? 진심으로, 내가 실망. 심장에서 죽은. 사람들이 이해가 안돼. 특히, 친구. PS:It's hard to translate to Korean.So, don't blame me if it is short.

Happy Birthday! 15th July!

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Yer... Acting Cute... Hey Ho! Charles Kon! Born in 15th July 1988! It's your birthday! 21st Birthday! Big enough too think MORE further. Teehee... Old one year already. But still act like a small kid. Why I said so? Because every time when there is an cartoon show, You would become excited. Childish. Mmm... Actually you are is a good and caring brother. Although you did not show too much of it. But we still can feel it. Sorry, Cause every time me, jenn, mummy Always have fight of some nonsense thing. But seriously girls is different than guys. When the three of us fight, I knew you sure will be angry. Then you will ask actually what we wanted so much until there's a fight. When dad is not around because of jobs. He would feel the burden of a family leader. But, he actually did not do much. Something funny is, You are scared of horror movie! Hah! Caught your weakness! Even an advertisement about movie also will hide behind me. Don't think too much! You will have illusions! *

Seeking

Seeking for the real me. Am I fake in front of others? What can I do? I want ways to be real. Why there is no anybody who want to help? I can't live long with my soul. As long as I live. As maniac as I can be. I do not want to end up sleeping in the side road. Cause I'm not a maniac. Have I seriously changed? I can't feel it. It's like a secret beyond my secret. A secret that nobody knows the actual answer. Can I live with this me? How many support will I get? One? Two? It's funny thinking of it. Even one support I'll be like on the cloud. Can't seem to find Esc button on my keyboard. Where did it went? Playing a fool of me? If time can be reverse. I seriously want to look what am I when I'm few months back. Or years back. Maybe a video of me when I'm good and I'm bad. Maybe I'll realize. Seriously, Nobody can tell what changes that change me. Blogs. Posts. Only these could understand me. They will not angry or reject when I type rubbish. Can

Empty

Am I trying too hard? Or should I give up? There is no respect produce from them. Only me who tries hard. Only bad words can be heard. But where is those compliment I used to hear. I want to hear it now. Where is the girl that I met two years ago? The girl that always laugh. That always be the most innocent one. R.I.G.H.T. Resign Is Good To Hear Where should I start? Or... Now I should stop? I wished somebody could understand my feelings. Actually, I tried to used with it. But, It is still the same. Where can I find fun? Heaven? I live life suffering. Not enjoying. I'm not perfect. Everyday I woke up, I feel afraid. My heart was pumping hard and furiously. Why did I do? Is it every mistake I have to take? Even others? Where is my life? . . Where is my life? . . Where is my life? I can't recall when was my last life. For now, It was not life. It is hell. But I am ready for more suffering days, weeks, month, years and many more. I wanted to cut myself. But I was afraid of pain. I

Birthday = 4th of July = I'm Sorry... = I Love You Guys...

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The Almighty Card! The Scandal Picture! Don't be Jealous that I Took Picture With YeSung! The Grand Gift! The Mystery Gift from Teck Lee. The Head. The Middle. The Tail. Serena!!!! Samantha!!! Natalie!!!! Hate you guys! Why give me such expensive gift! I'm worthless! I'm not suit with this expensive gift! I really don't know that I will get a present like this. I thought that I'm useless. I only know how to angry but not to understand. When I saw the card, there was sooo many people sign it. I did not know that I have soo many friends other than my "Angels". You guys make me clear that soo many people in the world care about me. This was my best birthday ever. Really! This memory will never be erased. Even it do erased by itself. When I saw you guys, I will sure remember it in my heart. Seriously, I did not expect I would get a gift that are worth more than I think. I really love the card... When I took out the card from the plastic bag, The first I saw is

Confused

Why everybody acting so weird these days? Are you guys planning something? Or you guys hiding something from me? I hate it when I am the person which do not know anything. I'm not a kid anymore. I have grown up. I can accept more than you guys think. But why is it so important to care about my feelings? I want to know. ________________________________________ Ka Ching! Money keep coming in! Non-stop! How can I handle these pressure. Maybe someday I'll disappear with the money. No kidding! It's a lots of money! If someday, When I'm carrying the money. Suddenly I got robbed! How? I'm scared! _____________________________________