S A L L Y; K O N N Y

I'm already seventeen. I'm already in form 5. I'm gonna sit for SPM this year. Everything happen real fast. Can I pause those happy moments? Can I replay those impromptu jokes that were said just now? I'm afraid, but I can't do anything. It seems like I'm useless. Hmmm.... There were so many things in my mind that I wanted to fulfill. Yeah... Thousands of them. But I'm not capable to do so. Am I already limit to this stage ONLY? God... Please bless me. Like you blessed me on 2009. I love you for what YOU gave me and repay me everything. :D You're a great listener. p/s : Grace and Jessica gonna see this post real soon~ XD

你…… 跟你做朋友已经有几年了， 有些事 我很想让你知道。 在我揭开之前， 我想问问你 我在你心目中是什么？ 我一直 都当作你是我最要好的 朋友。 可是，你呢？ 当你有困难的时候， 我都想会尽力 帮你解决。 害怕 你会伤心。 不管是学校 还是 朋友的问题， 我都会想爆头脑 帮你解决。 当然， 不只是我。 每一次怕你赶不及功课， 我都会把我已经做完的借给你。 怕你给老师处罚。 在某些事， 我都会让你。 也都是怕你 生气。 我那么对你好， 却回来的不是我所想要得。 在 PMR 拿成绩 的时候。 都开始明白了。 到现在， 你还是一样。 有事 才找我。 我现在所写的东西。 不是故意要让你看到， 也不是要我们的感情不好。 就是没有其他的恶意。 不管怎么样， 我还是会尊重你。 因为， 象你这种的朋友 是 独一无二 的。 :))

Fuh!!! I think I sound over reacting in that title huh? I haven't been in this blog for months now! What have I done to this blog?!!! It looks dusty yet rusty! First thing I did when I log in is to remove the player! Yes! The player! The song aged already. Not my coffee anymore. XDDD Well... Few days back, when I was searching for some essay papers. I saw something that is memorable. That make me goes "How silly I reacted so hard on it." It's a notebook contain some notes about... Nursing's steps. Like Dressing. Hair shampoo. Bed making. Bed bath. Check temperature. etc. Other than that actually, the first page is my job. The compsquad rules. I still remember how I work so hard memorizing and get used to it. Those are precious little giant stuff that happen to me. This lifetime opportunity that happen only once in my life. It's always gonna be precious. For my thought, I think we are the one who rises up the sun.And the other work ward remaining it. The moment...

Really not in the mood to blog any stuff. Even one look to blog. Cause I don't feel it's my freedom to do so already. Even in Facebook. Twitter. Or any place. Di manakah kebebasan bersuara kita? Aigooo... I don't know why. Please don't even ask me. It's already been continuously. Our freedom fading fading fading away~ I guess after this post. I probably became the evil person. Get the hatred. Get the judgement. I get all those negative! Yup! Only me! Cause why? No freedom!!! And I repeat! ONLY ME!!!! *Banging My Head* Ya~ Lu Btul semua... Lu tak yah pikir logik la... Tak gune pun~

It's clear when you just see the title right? I'm like being another kid age below 10. Putting the LOVE to the title. Because I'm freaking love AJK 09/10 and 10/11!!!! Oh My God... I really do love them. I expect the responsible to end. But not our history and memories! It will never end! And the members. Especially the 94's! They are totally awesome! Really! I'll go hands up in the air for the 94's. Much love for you guys! St. John family is really felt like second home. I really touched by the action and all. You guys really prove "action speak louder than words" true! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ I don't care what other said about this AGM! It's the love that matters!!!! LEE KWON-KI! ME! PHOON LI WEN! CHIM KAH PUI! SERENA! MICHELLE! WAN XIN! VICTOR! LI MAY! TOMMY! KAH JUN! YIT MEY! TECK LEE! KAI YANG! Together we'll make history! Together we'll make great memories!!! SA RANG HAE yeo-ro-bun! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

I care. I believe. I love. You... Was a history for me. Nevertheless I wouldn't want it to repeat in time. The history wasn't bad. It's great spending details with you. But it's true when I said I don't want it to repeat in my life. I hate you. Fakes that can never be real. Tears can't be forced out. It's better beautiful when it shed without anyone knowing even yourself. Forced tears are for actress. Shedding unwanted fake tears. For me, you are one of the actress. Shedding tears. Fake tears. Fake you. You have got a family. Then why would you abandoned it. And give unwise reason to leave this home? You beg in your knees just to have him to admit that you're one of them. The daughters. When it's time for sightings. You beg for sympathy. Crying. Alphabetically. Emotionally. I'm totally looking you down. As a cheap person? You wanted earthlings to able know your feelings. But do you know what earthlings feels? Not 100% but 90% of you is totally fa...

Ah.... Holiday again... Spending it like past year's holiday. Sitting at home do exactly nothing. This year not going to area camp. After the phobia of previous area camp. Mm... There's nothing big happen to me. Maybe I'll start another poetic post again. Yesterday, Eve message me in Facebook. And then we chat through phone. I really wanted to meet her. But it's very stress to go out with person that are way better than myself. I might feel very very small in her eyes. Is it her real feeling when she said she misses me? And craving to meet me? Maybe if I hang out with her always. I'll be just like her. Pretty and manage to change myself.