S A L L Y; K O N N Y

Really not in the mood to blog any stuff. Even one look to blog. Cause I don't feel it's my freedom to do so already. Even in Facebook. Twitter. Or any place. Di manakah kebebasan bersuara kita? Aigooo... I don't know why. Please don't even ask me. It's already been continuously. Our freedom fading fading fading away~ I guess after this post. I probably became the evil person. Get the hatred. Get the judgement. I get all those negative! Yup! Only me! Cause why? No freedom!!! And I repeat! ONLY ME!!!! *Banging My Head* Ya~ Lu Btul semua... Lu tak yah pikir logik la... Tak gune pun~

It's clear when you just see the title right? I'm like being another kid age below 10. Putting the LOVE to the title. Because I'm freaking love AJK 09/10 and 10/11!!!! Oh My God... I really do love them. I expect the responsible to end. But not our history and memories! It will never end! And the members. Especially the 94's! They are totally awesome! Really! I'll go hands up in the air for the 94's. Much love for you guys! St. John family is really felt like second home. I really touched by the action and all. You guys really prove "action speak louder than words" true! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ I don't care what other said about this AGM! It's the love that matters!!!! LEE KWON-KI! ME! PHOON LI WEN! CHIM KAH PUI! SERENA! MICHELLE! WAN XIN! VICTOR! LI MAY! TOMMY! KAH JUN! YIT MEY! TECK LEE! KAI YANG! Together we'll make history! Together we'll make great memories!!! SA RANG HAE yeo-ro-bun! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

I care. I believe. I love. You... Was a history for me. Nevertheless I wouldn't want it to repeat in time. The history wasn't bad. It's great spending details with you. But it's true when I said I don't want it to repeat in my life. I hate you. Fakes that can never be real. Tears can't be forced out. It's better beautiful when it shed without anyone knowing even yourself. Forced tears are for actress. Shedding unwanted fake tears. For me, you are one of the actress. Shedding tears. Fake tears. Fake you. You have got a family. Then why would you abandoned it. And give unwise reason to leave this home? You beg in your knees just to have him to admit that you're one of them. The daughters. When it's time for sightings. You beg for sympathy. Crying. Alphabetically. Emotionally. I'm totally looking you down. As a cheap person? You wanted earthlings to able know your feelings. But do you know what earthlings feels? Not 100% but 90% of you is totally fa...

Ah.... Holiday again... Spending it like past year's holiday. Sitting at home do exactly nothing. This year not going to area camp. After the phobia of previous area camp. Mm... There's nothing big happen to me. Maybe I'll start another poetic post again. Yesterday, Eve message me in Facebook. And then we chat through phone. I really wanted to meet her. But it's very stress to go out with person that are way better than myself. I might feel very very small in her eyes. Is it her real feeling when she said she misses me? And craving to meet me? Maybe if I hang out with her always. I'll be just like her. Pretty and manage to change myself.

It's been ages when I last posted something. I planned on writing something long. But it takes time thou. Alone in the house with my loud music. Maybe? These freaking days, made me go high and low. Even horizontally and vertically. Honestly, I don't think they are _._._._ already. It's now _._._ cause we already kind of agree something that might woop! I can't say my life gets better. I kept on making myself to think positive and making the positive way. But how would I know it's goes negatively? Ah... My friends list. Only Gods know who is my current friend. Maybe it's my fault if the list get shorter. Because it's me who shoo them off. Someone please bite me hard. Leave a great big scar will do. So I got reasons to shed tears. Woopsie... Totally random post. I posted what came out from my mind!

I love how our relationships before. There's no boundaries between boundaries. How the statement can be revealed just by looking on us. A true statement. I can feel the stabbing from my back. The aura, although it's unseen. The stabs is not accurate in one place, but it's consistent. Repeating step by step. It's actually the same. But I wonder, How it became so unfamiliar. Faith comes but we can't dodge any of it. If it came to you, right in front of you. Your both hand automatically accept it. It doesn't care what your feeling would be. There's sign and symptoms before it. Whether your heart is feeling uncomfortable. Or there's sudden reaction which going in to you. There are words. Please appreciate life. Don't complaint God has not given you a life with happiness. God has already giving his best. Maybe you will said it's not enough. But please live your life with what you have. Don't complaint till it's gone. Or you'll never know g...

I don't know what had happen between us. But you seems like dislike me day by day. I wish the time would stop. So the hateful in you would stop. I miss how you would like listen to me. Respect me more than others. Having fun with me and won't let me upset. Not that you have change. I understand your condition now. But it's not enough that only me who understand. I'm tired of it. Nearly fed up with it. But I didn't. I knew friends is desperately needing for understanding. Sometimes you treat me so good. Always there to cheer me up. But sometimes you treat me like nothing. Always abandon and avoiding me. You said don't hurt others. But you just did it thousands times. To me. It's not that you must treat me like a queen. But please. I'm a human with heart with feelings. I do feel hurt too. I know why these things is already a normal things to happen. But this time,I felt heartbroken. Really felt my heart scatter around and hoping someone repair it. And also...